How are all of you? Good I hope! I just wanted to share a poem that really rings true to me. I first discovered this poem by Emily Dickinson in 2016 and truer words have never been spoken to describe my character.
There’s lots of ways to describe who I am but some of the easiest ways to word it are “wears her heart on her sleeve”, “an open book”, “too nice”. I know i’m not always this way but more often than not I tend to put others first before me, i’m overconsiderate of others and i’m even the kind to back down if people talk over me. This unfortunately means some people think i’m a pushover, I can be overlooked by people who are more drawn to the loud and confident personalities and i’m a wallflower rather than the main attraction.
Does anyone else feel this way?
Recently I’ve found myself in a horrible situation. As much as I try not to overthink, some questions still haunt me from it. Should I have been more verbal about what I want in life and how much I want him to be a part of it? Should I have demanded he give me proper respect and time to sort our problems out? Should I have done things differently? How did things go wrong after investing so much effort, emotions, time and all into this?
How can I give everything I have and it still wasn’t enough?
For all the people like me- all the ones who love with everything they got, the ones who are actively seeking the one they want to spend the rest of their lives with, the ones going through heartbreak and trying to struggle through the pain to open up and love again, the ones who put the happiness of others before theirs for so long they forgot about their own needs and happiness – don’t give up. Keep searching for that love.
We love fully and unconditionally. In our contemporary dating world where casual flings and hook ups are the norm, we are gold. We are the kind of person you’d want by your side as you endure through life’s ups and downs. Never underestimate our capacity to love and support you.
Keep staying strong and searching because one day someone will see your worth and they’ll never let you go.
To all the “hopeless romantics”, the ones “who care too much” and the hopefuls out there you are amazing. Keeep going.
xx Ing from According To Ing